july 13th new blog new blog

wow. were to start. its been an interesting old time of late. I apologies to anyone following my blogs that i haven’t done one for a wile.  I did do one about a week ago and it was massive. i went on about all sorts and then my computer crashed and i lost everything…. afterwards i was thinking about what i had writen and it was probly best i didnt publish i cos it was pritty open and true and maybe abit to much info for a band web site….. So from now on this isnt realy a blog but me opening my hart to who ever wants to see it. ok…  :-)

well its 1.22am thursday morning and im just home after a gig at this joint called gypsey bar on brunswick st fitzroy. it was ok. really small venue and not much cash but its always cool if your playing on a wednesday. Last weekend we played a cracker of a gig at the rainbow hotel. and it was one of the best gigs i have ever done. There is something crazy that happens at our gigs sometimes , and it is hard to explain. Its like there has to be sustain elements in play.  But when we get it right OMG i do think that magic happens. Its hard to just turn on and off at will. and sometimes at some gigs it just doesn’t happen, and this can be really frustrating if you have just had a good gig the night before. But anyway, last Saturday at the rainbow was amazing! i wish that every gig could be like that……. We had a gig like that at stkilda fest this year and this dude who had turned up on crutches through them away and started dancing! and then he was joined by about 100 people and the gig just went through the roof. At the great britan hotel on my birthday weekend (thats another story) was another one that went ballistic! We can have these amazing momenst and touch so maney people and then the next day normal life starts again with all its problems, and i find myself sitting looking out my window and thinking “what the hell, is this real? when will it stop being like this? I wish i wasnt broke all the time so i could play to more people around the world, am i just living a dream? I just turned 34 am i supposed to keep doing this or do i grow up now and get a proper job? i hate proper jobs! i still live in a share house with the hole band, if i could make more money i could do this forever, i dont think it matters about age as much anymore, should i spend everything i have on this next album, AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH my head hurts!”

Anyway, its bloody cold outside. we go to the mountains tomorrow for the weekend to do 3 shows and maybe some snow boarding. cant wait.

eeerrrmmmm. I think thats it for now, i have so much more to say but i think im to sober to say it. i think im guna have to have a phew drinks befor the next blog, hart open thingy what ever you want to call it.   oh and thanks for all the comments on the comment page. i really didn’t think that there would be that many people interested in my rants so thankyou, you make me feel special.

Oh there is so much more to say…. i promise i will blog again soon. so much has happend that i want to talk about. just not flowing right at this moment.. all i will say is this….. Bree is the coolest girl i have ever met.. thanyou bree xxxx

19th of june 7th blog of all time. i think

man… about 3 minutes ago i new exactly what i wanted to say… i ran to the computer and logged on and my mind went blank… dam!

I think i was going to ask if anyone feels like i do right now… wondering if anyone else turns round at a certain point and goes… What the hell!

I feel like i have all the peaces of the jigsaw in front of me but im still not sure how to put it all together. i feel like I’m surrounded by people that love, respect and believe in me but I’m still not sure what to do with them… Its really hard to know what to do and how to go about it…. The words of an artict that i saw purform the other day ring in my ears. “be a pioneer, don’t be afraid to be the first to do something” and i think this is the way forward, cos lineing up and waiting your turn could take a life time….   Maybe I’m just feeling emotional cos the audience didn’t really get us tonight…. but maybe we need to pick our audiences better …. But the money was good… oooooowwwwwww money

I just have to say at this point, if your a potential client that has just popped onto our web site to give us a gig. please don’t be put off by my ramblings… we are awesome and you should definitely book us!!!!

Well i think thats about it from me tonight, cos if i keep typing im prob going to be deleting it tomorrow.

much love…… ben x

15th june 2011

well… finished my 10 days of work and my back is really screwed. haven’t moved from bed for 2 days. prob going to need some treatment. its those bottom two vertebrae. its not good…. enough winging..

I really cant wait to get back to playing this week. Got 4 gigs starting thursday. 2 sit down dinner crowds solo and 2 band shows.. I’m really looking forward to playing again. I’m in the middle of finishing some new songs but as usual I’m struggling with subject matter… all my songs seem to be about the same thing.. girls and myself.. one of the songs is about the state of the world and there are some great verses in it, but it is still hard to find out what is really going on.(going on in the world) there are so many conflicting views on the internet. Take fukushima nuclear power plant for instance, there are people convinced that this is the worst nuclear disaster of all time and others that play it down and say all the radiation will dissipate. there are some that say the world is over populated and others that say this is just a myth, apparently you could get the worlds population living in houses in the space of Victoria (australia) all be it crammed in tight but that is quite a small space ,,,,,,,,,,,,, ………………………. Global warming. the war on terror. the carbon tax. economic down turn. its such a broad subject its hard to know were to start, and what to believe. so as yet the song is unfinished. need to do some more research…… i could go on all day about this but prob a bit to political for this web site as i’m not well enough informed to start throwing conspiracies around. but i do think its time we evolved a little. crazy humans.. do you thing we can save the world?

Ok.. one band that blow me away recently is the ‘hypnotic brass ensemble’, great bunch of dudes, great message and great music. im a fan!

I’m at this minuet looking out my window and its raining outside. its my birthday in a couple weeks and i haven’t even told anyone yet. i was going to try and organize a party but to be honest I’m not really in the mood. its not like I’m 21. to be honest i haven’t been myself for some time. not sure why.  you see im a lover, a proper one. and it never seems to be equal. the girl im with now ( a beautiful girl from galway ireland with black hair and green’ish eye’s and amazing freckles) is on a work visa and has been just about to leave for a year and a half so the relationship has only ever gone so far. all the walls that are up really take its tole on me.She really is an amazing woman…..  i was just about to start going on about my x’s but i stopped myself just in time… thank god for that! wow that was deep

I really like this blogging thing, i have decided not to hook it all up with face book and twitter as im getting abit over the whole social media thing. if you wanna read my blogs then i’m sure you’ll find them ( and big love to those of you who have found it and are following my postes.) it like my own little concealing session. im not mad, just a little strange is all.                  so im going now… much love…..ben

1st of june 2011

june 1st 2011

Third blog of all time… blogy Mc blog blog…

Well what a couple of weeks it has been… Prob had the best gig we have ever played on sunday at the prince of wales….. That is one cool pub… we had Meegan Thomson playing violin and billy on sax.. we had the whole gang! the sound was purfect.

I fell in love with a song yesterday. city and colour, what makes a man. if you get the chance i recomend you you tube it. it has some of the best words in it…

well it is a beautifull winters day outside.. Im about to go out into the world and be constructive. i have started demoing all the new songs of late so think i might i do some more recording. playing at neds resteraunt again tomorow (thursday) Quite looking forward to it. its not that buzy yet but its a great chance to just play my new and old songs and hang out with ned a Co.

Well i think thats enough blogging for today.. i did this blog on a computer without spell check so i apolajize for all the spelling mistakes.. it is all phanetical.. Ironic that phanetical is spelt with a ph………

ben x

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